Here comes another of the things that before reading the ebook I was already doing. When I needed to know how many were my mental and pseudo-spiritual enemies and concisely what were the speculations of each type of enemy against me, I made a database to classify them. But it was not a classification of their keywords since I never suffered the keyword method. The classification was of different enemies and their attitudes. In this way I counted with a resource for knowing who I needed to target in my protospiritual warfare works and also I did it to remind me when I had already worked out a certain class of enemy or attitude against myself, for dismissing it, and working another not yet worked out. Here below I share with you the scheme of my compartmentalization of mental and pseudo-spiritual enemies.
Attitudes: The attitudes I saw others had towards myself that I hated.
Categories: The social strata or caste of the enemies.
By Situation: For instance, enemies known by Internet.
By Place: Enemies that I knew where to find.
Those Invisible: Enemies that use silent, non-verbose methods of disturbance, like putting me nervous.
Those Repressive: Enemies that are insidious in denying me to live, achieve or have something.
Those Envious: Jaundiced and resented enemies that are fond of coveting what they do not have or what they do not deserve.
Those Repulsive: Enemies of whom the sole sight is a bad experience.
Specific Periods of My Life: Enemies that I knew as friends or whatever in a specific moment of my life, and then they turned out to be more my enemies than the friends I thought we were.
As an anecdote pertaining keywords, I need to share an important event of my life. Years ago, when I learnt about the Buddhist practice of going to meditate to cemeteries... I liked very much the idea and decided to do it.
The Buddhist purpose of meditating in a cemetery is for realizing the transitoriness of material existence. Still, I wanted to do it for meditating simply in God. The visits to distinct cemeteries were very much fun at first. I felt very much thrilled by the fanciful architecture of the different memorials I went.
But this succession of esthetic pleasures posed an obstacle for concentrating in the form of God I wanted to meditate upon when going to the cemeteries. Occasionally I tried the Buddhist approach; meditating on the ephemeral quality of material life. But then something happened.
I started reading the tombstones and names on the crypts like reading between lines in a book. Soon after I started doing this I noticed that in each memorial I went there were determined areas where the reading between slabs begun to yield messages. The method was reading a tombstone or a crypt, obviating the following one, reading the third, obviating the fourth and reading the fifth. Reading these three names in different order and also shuffling the letters of some of the names. The experience always started when the first tombstone with a given name for some reason called my attention, and the third and fifth were two other names... that were related in some way to the idea the first slab propounded! This was a novelty and a fancy that I cherished for some time. I sort of felt very much touched by the 'messages' I discovered. The point is that I felt that many of them were aimed at me, but do not take me for a necrophilic paranoid, I just want to expose the advantages of deconstruction here. I felt such a thrill and excitement by discovering these 'symbols' that I devised a method for calming myself down about the subject. I started going to the cemeteries with a notebook and started writing these “symbols” down. Then, when I had an extensive stock of them I started studying the ones that I felt I did not comprehend. When I researched I found more inviting knowledge, sometimes related to the general idea that the three signs seemed to be expounding.
These portents, as a whole, seemed to be following a pattern. They mainly seem to touch certain archetypes, like end of times era, the Antichrist, religious pictures, cosmic pictures, messianism, 'reptilism' as a subject; these are sort of cool. But also others very gross like one that seemed to me to be pretending to feel like a facsimile depiction of a strange, un-forgotten moment of my adolescence. This last one I do not figure out how it could be done at all. It is so alluding to myself that I conclude that is too gruesome. Because for myself to think that in some way I could be spied mentally when I was an adolescent is no joke. But the sad conclusion is that it could be. I do not know.
The overall impression I have of these chimeric symbols that taught me to deconstruct is that they may be done by administrators of the cemeteries who have a great bookish knowledge and designing the disposition of tombs they want to play on the emotions of the visitors... to teach them something? But to be sincere I do not think that it is only the speculations of the cemeteries' staff. I think the administrators of the memorials are mere channels when they assign a determined person to a tomb in particular.
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