On Broadcasting Telepathy

 

Like I said in the first post, an elsewhere of this blog, I transcended the human condition at the age of 21, in August 1998. At first, I saw it as a traumatic event.

The first months as an awakened person, I thought that what did happen to me was that I had burned my mind and brains beyond repair. I thought that I had gone to a forbidden place that was beckoning me since my teenage years.

Back To Hatha (Second Try)

I’m still trying to manage my time and make everything I want and need to do fit into the tight schedule of studying several things at once. The return to yoga I planned in August didn’t turn out as I expected, mainly because I started a four months course in a community college and had to readjust my schedule to having to go there 5 days a week three hours per day; but at least I didn’t forsake my weight lifting training.

 

Yesterday the last day of my most recent payment for one month at the gym ended and so today I am beginning a new hatha-yoga season.

 

It’s nice to have the muscles toned and to be feeling well for the weight lifting training, but I feel that not doing yoga and progressing in that endeavor too (like I have been doing for the last seventeen years) disconnects me from my higher self.

 

Weight lifting is so enlivening and fun to practice, that even when I put myself the limit of doing only mid-bore workouts I forget and sometimes one or two full-bore workouts slip in a month’s schedule, this has to be controlled because it really tires me.

 

Now I’m waiting one week to reboot my weight-lifting, and so, I am aiming now to at least 6 (aiming at 7 really) consecutive days of hatha after waking up, before I return to the gym.

 

Once returning I have to have the drive to combine the two practices; intertwining them. It’s not I can’t because my body is taxed (being tired is good because I sleep and that makes me grow), it’s because doing any of the two all the time, every day either of the two is quite a time sink against study and work.

 

I’m kind of ashamed that for many months now I’m going through a phase when I can’t keep up with yoga, while this isn’t the case with the gym, it’s disappointing anyhow.

 

2012 hatha fiasco:

 

Jan: 1 (session)

Feb: -

Mar: 4

Apr: 5

May: 1

Jun: -

Jul: 3

Aug: 2

Sep: (about to begin)

 

2012 gym workouts:

 

Jan: 9

Feb: 6

Mar: 5

Apr: 2

May: 6

Jun: 5

Jul: 2

Aug: 3

Sep: 6 + maybe another one or two

 

Overall except for January, all the other months I didn’t achieve the quota of combined 12 days per month exercise bare minimum, which sucks… I just needed to be presented with how uncaring I was,  like now I took the work to record and see it for what it is.

A New Start for Hatha

In late 2011 I became acquainted with the state of things in the current, so-called, ‘free open source software’ world, AKA the GNU scene. I was in for a wild ride of constrained and diminished productivity, frustration, malevolently designed and prepackaged sidetracking and a nauseous deception.

 

I accept that in the early 2000s I bought into the baits of the free soft movement and thought that, when the moment of applying myself to knowing, learning and using FOSS came I will make the best use of it.

 

My motives were mainly inspired by foreseeing the added satisfaction and feeling of accomplishment of having risen from being an outsider with a lot of ideas to implement to the platform of a self-made Internet entrepreneur that became one without paying any kind of allegiance (and money$) to the corporate world (mainly M$ and Adob€/Macrom€dia), oh boy, how naïve I was!

 

Without going into much detail (I have content about this topic for an XL article about the dangers of trusting the FOSS/GNU worlds blindly) I can say that the (travesty of) software brands and (experiments of) development firms of the GNU scene are a hoax in the sense that they are publicized as a free alternative to paid, established operating systems, tools, applications and platforms when in fact that’s way far from the truth.

 

GNU and FOSS are a free alternative to mainstream soft, but for NERDS and DWEEBS, not a real state-of-the-art, power-user friendly alternative that can be considered by those Windows users that flowed with the times and are dependent on real computing.

 

I lack the means to express with words in what degraded, depressing and hopeless world I was thrown as soon as I begun giving my first baby steps in the world of self-made Internet entrepreneurship.

 

To put it bluntly, the most desirable, formerly even coveted, GNU and FOSS pieces of soft are a form of enslavement way worse than any sort of corporate abuse I ever got from Windows and its soft. I wanted to talk about this in this article in a prosaic way so I’m gonna try defining what I perceived in one paragraph:

 

It looked as if the open source disasters were crafted as a sort of resented, vengeful expression against the world perpetrated by the dorks, nerds, twerps and dweebs who wade in foss/gnu (aka FREETARDS) development; for the unsuspecting users to pay the dweebs back for so-much ass-kissing, depersonalization, de-individualization, repression, pressure to conform, ostracizing of errors, soul violation and social conditionings they were subjected to in their “formative” and “corpo-noob” years…

 

The months I fought with open source stuff (mostly platforms more than oses and tools/apps) and I still feel the taint of paying attention to something so little and stupid like it, a tragedy that disconnected me from my higher self for a despicable vomit, project of a lifestyle, that I wasn’t expecting.

 

Everything was broken, badly done or incredibly nerd-like, in a way that either I did a superhuman effort or the nightmare of having to deal with such a beheaded strata of thought would extended for months on end.

 

And thus, locked out from this blog and at the same time hardening my soul with the academic torture of the socio-economically resented of the freetards I was far from being living true to my ideals and I felt there was no point in progressing in the hatha-yoga self-discipline because I couldn’t share it openly as I tasted and then loved to do. I wanted to confess that: I love coming here and showing my life to others and it helps me greatly to get in the mood of this kind of things when I want to do them and feel like an effect deserves to be produced on society at large.

 

Nevertheless, I didn’t give up a life dedicated to physical evolution and perfection because though I wasn’t doing yoga I still had my weight-lifting training to compensate. Now after nine months, I realize that I did it again!!! As I wrote back in this blog that I burnt myself out in weight work outs, it happened AGAIN, and last week I was feeling my muscles like literal parasites craving for food, and fags and stuff: this is not good.

 

Never gonna give up iron weights training, when you have plenty of gyms near, it’s like a blessing and a total stupidity not making use of them. But if you have to commute I think one can give it a second thought. But when you can walk three minutes to a gym, if you don’t use it, you’re missing something for a life of sloth and sedentary couch potatery that is not mentally sane in my opinion.

 

I started being extra careful with my gym workouts. Like, I was going only 2 times per week to the gym, and doing far from full bore routines:

 

two staple exercises: abs and shoulders

three if feeling inspired but most of the time two specific muscle exercises

 

like, if it was a biceps’ day it will be: abs > biceps exercise 1 > biceps exercise 2 > shoulders and that’s it, on average 30 minutes of workout.

 

This went okay for several months, and coexisting with hatha-yoga, it works and I can attest to it. But returning to the subject of my baby steps in the commercial Internet fueled by gnu and foss, somewhat the anger I got out from being fighting with software translated to a blind fury in the gyms where I forgot about my preference for hatha-yoga over weight training and fell back into devastating full-bore work-outs, a subtle rejecting of the nerd world of corporal freaks.

 

Anyway, I’m not chronic fatigued like before, and this is good. I have found ways to cope with one of the intrinsic challenges of an athlete: chronic fatigue and I will be posting about that in the future.

Restarting Yoga, Again

From July 2010 until November I was doing the best I could pertaining hatha-yoga practice. The method I devised to combine it with weight lifting workouts did work, at last.In the first week of December 2010 I had to attend a very important issue which prevented me for continuing the practice. Then, in mid december I retook gym workouts after two months without them, that I was neglecting for the same aforementioned issue.

But not coming to this blog I forgot how did I plan to combine hatha with weights. I was doing full bore weight workouts and so I decided not to pick up hatha again after the personal issue was solved.

The past sixteenth of January I ended one month of full bore weights training and taking on account the two months (October and November) which I forsook weight training it hasn't been a bad month at all...

I knew that I promised myself to take bodybuilding workouts lightly... but I thought that with good recovery time, not doing yoga and taking a creatine, glutamine, taurine and protein and fairly copious carbs I could return to after two months without workouts to it in a powerful way.

I succeeded. I did seven of the eight workouts I aimed for. They were full bore ones but didn't feel like.

Now that I am rebooting my hatha yoga I hope I will be able to take this two endeavours for ever and for never neglecting them anymore.

Anarthas in Action

After almost a week since the previous post I wanna record that I am about to start my fifth hatha-yoga session since I started again six days ago. Today the inertia feelings attacked me again. They feel totally alien and even stupid to me and I am proud of having progressed so much psychically for the last fifteen years since the day I started doing hatha at eighteen, and specially for the last twelve years after realizing samadhi of the conciousness transposition (asamprajnata samadhi also known as dharma-megha-samadhi) type. I am proud of this because I note that the frequency of my real self is very different to the mind's and I always note when the thoughts I witness are impositions of the "this"... this is weird. Now I've learnt that when the "this" suggests idleness and sloth pertaining my sadhana, when I fall it's difficult not doing it because there is a sick psychologic/metaphysical game going on in me. The "this" (manas) suggest revelling in the inertia of ignorance and sloth, and the cue is picked up by the senses (indriyas) which """conditioned""" by the memory of sense gratification produce a volition in the self defeating any given quantity of will power for hatha-yoga practice I might treasure.

It's been a bit more than a month since my last hatha-yoga sessions.

In June I have done hatha-yoga three times and zero workouts. The chronic fatigue wasn't easy to surmount. Not only I didn't have the drive nor the energy to do any physical activity, not only that, but my sleep patterns changed drastically. In the last month I've been sleeping for more than 10 hours everyday, even sleeping 12 hours a day for many days.

I was suffering in this fallen, downtrodden condition for around three weeks until ten days ago I couldn't bear it anymore and started to search on the web for remedies to this medical condition known as chronic fatigue. And what I've found is that one of the remedies used for this condition is ginseng.

Then, I started taking the ginseng (which I already had in my collection of mother tinctures) and things got a bit better. Such was the recovery produced by the ginseng that today I'm starting (mildly) to do hatha-yoga again. Concidentially, the ginseng is also helping me to recover the sharply constant 8 hourssleep pattern I am used to.

When I feel 100% recovered I will try to implement the schedule that I devised in June. I checked it out just now and I know that I won't be able to accomplish it this month. If in the second week of June I was feeling at 40% of my energy but I can say that today, and after taking the ginseng for around a week I am feeling more or less around 75-80% of my physical energy...But this isn't the only reason of my chronic fatigue attack, I am sexually debauching too.

This month I have done eight full bore weight trainings and four mild sessions of hatha-yoga.

I did no less than three days per week without nutritional supplements nor an adequate diet. Worst of all, I did not recover fully after each workout.

This has proven good to a point as to test my limits but I don't plan in doing it anymore. At first I thought that after three years training I could do without supplements, a good diet and without taking time to recover. But I ended up exhaust.

If I have to choose between the two disciplines, I'd choose doing more hatha-yoga full bore per month than weight training.I have already projected and tried to follow this 12 full bore work outs and 14 mild hatha-yoga sessions per month but that has proven totally demanding and not satisfying at all.

Doing the 12 full bore weight and 14 mild yoga a month and 14 full bore yoga and 12 mild workouts every other month wouldn't be easy. It didn't work out with only 8 full bore weight workouts so I am trying the following routine for the next two months to see if I can endure it:

June

16 full bore yoga sessions and 8 mild work outs and 2 full bore. This, I will try to do with proper diet and proper recovery time.

July

14 full bore yoga sessions and 8 mild work outs and 4 full bore. This, I will try to do with proper diet and proper recovery time.

After this sudden attack of chronic fatigue for making the wrong choices I am keeping the last six days of May for mild hatha-yoga practice.

Progress In My Physical Edge

In the last couple of months I've managed to change my diet to one more balanced pertaining acids and bases. Besides this I've also devised a plan to be able to be practicing weight lifting along hatha-yoga.

I changed my schedule and the approach I used to these two disciplines. My idea, once implemented, ended up being the following routine:

First training weight lifting in a mild manner, like doing only three different excercises, like abdominals, one specific exercise that can be arms or back and shoulders until I reach from fourteen to sixteen sessions of hatha-yoga at full throtle, that is no less than six asanas per session.

Then stopping the full throtle hatha-yoga sessions and starting to train weight lifting full throttle, meaning abdominals, three specific exercises (like preacher bicep curls, concentration bicep curls and wire bicep curls) and shoulders in each session, until I have ten of these full throttle weights sessions completed.

In the meantime doing short hatha-yoga sessions of only two or three asanas. I finished already one heavy hatha-yoga cycle and one light weight lifting cycle and, at the moment, I am by the fourth full fledged weight session and keeping up with the light hatha-yoga sessions.

So far, it is giving me results. Now that I have the diet bettered I need to better it even further, as being able to reduce carbs and increase fiber and proteins. This will be my next task pertaining physical evolution.

THIS IS A 18th OF FEBRUARY POST that I couldn't post for security problems.

THE FALL

I come here around hundred days after my last uninspired flirtations with yogic culture.I do not know exactly why I felt, for the last hundred days a complete aversion to any sort of bettering and sobering up of the self, I don't know yet.

That is a third of a year, and it is somewhat alarming.I realize that it isn't easy for a yogui to be aiming to tread the path of yoga in an averse environment as an epicenter of meat industry is.

But on second thought, I mustn't be very much hard on myself for this fall of the last hundred days. I need to plan out my month of workouts in a better way. If I am going to have my stomach all upset for a bad planned diet and a fast metabolism that incites me to eat around six times per day it's just not funny, let alone healthy.

I must plan it in a way that the weight workouts days don't interfere with the hatha yoga's need for mitahara...I have all the workings of the jail-like, barbarian, western megalopolis figured out.

In its emasculation of a reallly healthy and transcendental culture and philosphy of life it tries to condition even the unconditionable. When the reasonings of the hive minds in one's head aren't bought anymore as own thoughts, the ways of the western systems of control and barbarian hive-minds are decidedly blunt and thoughly cohesive and forceful in its infusion of anxiety and impatience for extracting pleasures and benefits from material things.

Working out is not very much funny because of the uncleanliness of the place and of the rank-and-file sort of persons that go to the gym I go, that is on the same block where I'm living. The gym is so much full of germs that for the time being there it clogs my nose so deeply with particles and mucus denoting infection, that it changes my life in a very deep way and for the worst...

This of having the nose clogged for the germs living in the uncleanliness of the gym is a total downer. If I am unbalanced with a bad diet is quite obvious that I would have low defenses and get this kind of nose infections all the time. But I am not giving up.

I need to have the strength of designing a better diet and sticking to it for the sake of being able to continue lifting weights as a means of evolving physically.I have just had an idea, I will split the months in two. In one month, two weeks I'll eat six meals per day and do three full throtle workouts per week, while the other half of the month I'll revert to four meals per day and do yoga no less than four days per week and workouts two times per week, but not full steam like in the first half of the month, but mildly in comparison.

After a nonchalant summer, that is about to finish, of not doing nothing for evolving physically I am fed up with sloth and the intertia of the surrounding demons that live like hogs. I am not letting that interfere with my personal path anymore. I'm not giving up yoga nor weight lifting, NEVER!!!