A Roundup on "ARTIFICIAL SYNCHRONICITY, LANGUAGE MANIPULATION, KUNDALINI AND THE CORNERS OF REALITY”

It’s been nine years since I’ve read ARTIFICIAL SYNCHRONICITY, LANGUAGE MANIPULATION, KUNDALINI AND THE CORNERS OF REALITY.

That book was like the epitome of literary conspiracy theory madness. It’s a very neurotic, but very specialized book, and it’s going to blow the mind of everyone who reads it, that’s for sure.

12-E THERE IS NO "GOING BACK HOME" - 2. "GOING BACK HOME" VERSUS VAMPIRISM

"In other words, their speculation is capable of producing "vampirism", and this you can apply to literally every case of linguistic prison. Don't believe me : verify yourself. Take a look at pictures of pre-hurricane veterans of OUR SIDE a long time ago, mainly when THEY were young.

Pay attention to reports bringing these pictures from the Fifties, the Sixties, the Seventies, or else do your own research. Analyze their auras. You'll see that everyone of them had "vampirism"."

"And by influencing some society values in distorted ways, they reinforce for your brain the idea of impediment. What is important to say here is that there is no impediment whatsoever for you to do anything, provided that they don't use it later against you."

I accept and share the view of PON pertaining almost all the theories in this section. The objectionable passages are discussed below.

"Kundalinic shells are not 'prizes', 'rewards', 'salaries', 'benefits' or 'gifts' that you could 'receive' in the future, with or without the illusion of "auric death". Realize that there is no receiving and no winning at all. There is no "lottery" in the Backstage. Shells are just modeling clays. And nobody really cares about you in the Stage World. Not one of their characters gives a penny for you in the Stage World.

Do you believe that you have an impediment to have this relationship with a kundalinic shell of your beloved one in the Stage World ? Ask yourself. Do you believe you need it to reduce your vampirism ? Ask yourself."

I think this section is one of the most enlightened of the whole ebook. Perhaps it is, but I do not think that "kundalinic shells" cannot be idealized as "prizes" or "rewards." It may be that they are not actually prizes, but I do think that when "loved ones" are involved one can idealize them as prizes and rewards. And the struggle or "competition" for obtaining that loved shell, can be also idealized. One may not be the only one who has chosen a determined person to be her or his "loved one." In that case, one will have to win the "loved one." Assuming that one does not know the intentions of the "loved one" about her or his love. Besides, does "loved one" mean a relation, physical or protospiritual, where the two persons are completely sure of the of the exclusivity of the other's feelings towards oneself?

I am afraid that PON gives too much importance to the common, base feelings of the dregs of society and spirituality. I note it because I used to overdo it as well. Now I am taking the toil of dissecting PON's entire ebook because I doubt I will find again somebody expressing my own 'paranoid delusions' in the precise, exact way PON does. There is a great cure for all of the bad things enumerated in PON's ebook, and that cure is the obliteration of one's ego and pursuing of one's ideals blindly, with eyes and ears closed to both "stage" and "nagual realities." But sometimes it is not possible to do it. Or, in any other case, it may not be desirable for oneself.

"Depending on the case, THEY will say : that shell is too young for you, too old for you; too pretty (or handsome) for you, too ugly for you; that shell is famous and you're not; that character is poor (if you're rich) or vice-versa; that shell is black (if you're white, for instance) or vice-versa; that character is Jew (if you were created in a christian family or depending on the country you live if you were born in an arab family) or vice-versa; the character of that shell "doesn't combine" with yourself, and so on.

The point is : do you have any prejudice concerning age, race, sex, attributes of the character like job (if applicable), social class, nationality, "personality", "preferences" in the Stage World, likes and dislikes, little manias, etc. ?"

If one starts making a list of attitudes, like this prejudices that one has to bear in both "nagual reality" and "stage reality" as one being "THEIR" victim, one may find that dozens of attempts at washing one's brain are done to one daily. The only remedy being moving elsewhere; a place where you live among equals. A place where you do not need to suffer a society, a workplace, and a neighborhood where "THEY" and "THEIR characters" are "dealing with your case."

"Remember : the hurricane is over in your city and probably in your entire country. The secret Cold War is practically over in the Stage World. The OTHER SIDE can no longer manipulate neutrals and use them to turn the things you do in the Stage World against you. The characters of OUR SIDE are not sadistic monsters. Whatever you do, do with Love. The rule of the Backstage is Love."

As of the writing of this I cannot comprehend completely the concept of "hurricane." I do not feel any of the few things that happened in the world, that I witnessed or felt, as this so-called "hurricane." What are the readers of the ebook expected to think "the hurricane" is? I could not do another thing than interpret it in my way. The point that I do not share about it, is of it happening at once for a determined group of people only, mainly geographically. I think that "the hurricane" may be: a spiritual awakening, a metaphysical turning point of life, a crisis period, the moment one joins a cult, a traumatic experience and so on... but I am sure I am missing the point. If some day PON becomes available for questions, she/he must be questioned about details on "the hurricane." Does PON mean a real hurricane that devastates a place and, letting the people without nothing, forces the victims to experience "a complete paradigm shift" of their life?

12-E THERE IS NO "GOING BACK HOME" - 1. GENERAL CONCEPTS

Seemingly, the manners of "THEM" for brain washing one with the "GOIN BACK HOME" technique are true. I say this from a point of view of remembering personal experiences. I lived some times the symptoms and upon verification I was very deluded and dumbfounded when I realized that there was no real basis for a resurgence of... my love for ex-girlfriends. Thus feeling the, dubiously real, "auric death." This happened to me when I was still a jivan. These situations, in which brain washings forced me into, were like teachings on themselves, about the futility of trying the relive dead love that before was alive but it was not anymore. But, for PON, the only "continuity" that is allowed is an ever changing one that cannot allow any reliving of the past?

Why? Take for instance the example of one who decides to write her or his own biography. Indefectibly one is going to relive the past. It will be in the mind, reckoning memories, but it will be a reliving of the past after all. And what is wrong with that?

When PON denies the existence of "biography" and "continuity" in the "nagual reality", PON is denying the personal development that jivan persons or illumined persons may have achieved through the years. Remember that, nevertheless, the situation of being a jivan soul does not imply that the person is, invariably, mentally or emotionally deaf-mute. One given person, being jivanmukta or not may carry on a protospiritual life and, possessing a protospiritual 'personality', may have had developed a 'spiritual biography' after any deeds in the "nagual reality." Whether if a personality and a "biography" in the "nagual reality" may prove noxious to a jivan because of all the negative mind sets brought about by the individuated stance towards life, or not, is just a case of personal, egoistic protospiritual seeking.

I think that after all this ebook is totally detrimental to the protospiritual, psychologic and social development of a person in need of some transcendental advise. PON embellishes some very unlucky things, like mental implants and indoctrinating brain washings, as just "character guidelines", I think it is very serious... sections like this one let me thinking about the intentions of PON. Was PON's intention to figure some day in the list of the books most detrimental to human evolution?

"When you have your crystal activated, access to the pigeon-holes stored in your brain and also to the Backstage itself, you'll be able to play characters in the Stage World, to have your shell changed and also to make use of particular abilities the same way Neo and Trinity did in "The Matrix" when accessing instant "programs" to learn things."

Here the author promises the readers a future on some invented mystical Cyberland that I doubt exists. One can change one's shell, that is accepted. But my personal, painful experience is that having "pigeon holes", if it is that they are what I think they are, may prove useful for gaining ability "to play characters in the stage world", but the other powers, namely "to have your shell changed" (in the way propounded by the author's examples) and to make "use of particular abilities in the same way Neo and Trinity did" like somersaulting from a building's roof to other roof and stopping bullets with the power of thought? And the only thing one needs to achieve that is an "alien crystal" in the brain? Give me a break.

Besides, here, PON begins the delusive and obscure use of the word "crystal". I could not get the concept of what a "crystal" is until I re-readed the parts in the ebook where it is named again and again. PON, elsewhere in the book, says that a "crystal" is either "an alien crystal implanted in your brain by aliens" or "technology." The conclusion I have arrived to, after many interpretations is that these said "crystals" are implanted in the aliens' victims by means of either a physical or an astral 'operation'. Other rationales, those that I first thought of, were that the "crystal" is simply TV, radio and Internet or even that the "crystal" is one's capability to reflect sensations, feelings and emotions. But seemingly, the sense in which PON talks about it is in the sense of alien "technology" implanted in one's brain, literally.

"You're a survivor of the hurricane, and THEY are all characters. THEY are all pretending, like phantoms around you, and they read your mind all the time, manipulating it and your thoughts through the association of ideas, double-talk and artificial synchronicity.

Pavlov did this to mice in a lab, manipulating only acts and behaviors instead of thoughts. Is that how do you want to feel ? Like a rat in a maze ?

Ask yourself : do you trust their characters ? Do you think they are reliable ? They want to manipulate your brain and induce you to take your aura to the altar of sacrifices. Their characters do not want you to be happy. They want to deceive you, they want to take energy from you. Stay alert. Watch out."

If one interprets this and where it reads "characters" one thinks of mosquito-brained automatons, that only do and know what the systems of mind control dictates them and lets them know, then I think this passages are fairly acceptable for their coherence. I wonder in which ways PON is cataloged in the Internet for his or her writings, but I think that the ruthless label of "schizophrenic", among many others, that I have read do PON no justice at all. But lets not call PON a prodigy neither, because "the praises are false."
Yet, I share this view of "THEIR" characters.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI AND SHELLS POTENCY

"Wait .... This part is pending.."

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - CONTROLLING YOUR FEARS DURING KUNDALINIC EXITEMENT

One does not need to be afraid of She. One just needs to be sober and respectful with she when one feels that She has risen. I became conscious of Her ascent only after being practicing yoga for six years, when I was studying "Kundalini Yoga" by Swami Sivananda Saraswati. I was living in an apartment in a cemetery. The summit of my yoga there was a night of astral projection. But I was very young. I could not harness her power in the first tries... I got dengue fever! It mashed my bones for around three weeks, but then She rescued me with yoga and rehabilitated me in the ten days that followed. I was a kid of 23 years of age. I was doing all sort of spiritual practices, but at the same time acting like a 23 years, like accepting all the whimsical treats that industrial society was putting in my path. Perhaps more austerity and sobriety would help me, instead of having been eating ice cream by cemeteries and crematoriums I could be doing something else.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI IS NO DESIRE

"Since the day you were born, mainly if you're a westerner person, your brain has been bombarded with the false association between the excitement state of your sexual organs and feelings like guilt, fear, desire, sin, shame, prohibition, and so on.

Now you may have to deconstruct all these false associations and dichotomies embedded in the very cultural or religious environment in which you have grown up."

When living in bad places, and where I grew up during childhood and adolescence the negative feelings related to my sexual meditations and feelings were always of filthiness.

Living among barbarian "alligators" a little kid and even an adolescent excited sexually feels like a filthy hog with prickly heat
The barbarians who eat animals, they deconstructed, when they have sex, they are just bags of corpses interchanging secretions
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The feeling for sex in the atmosphere deep down into the barbarian shambles is to feel like a dead hog

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI IS WHITE

I do not know if it is so. What I know is that, coming all women and men on earth from the same heavenly matrixes, I note that there are certain women and girls that look like as if they are daughters of the god Brahma of the Hindu pantheon. For what I have seen of depictions of goddesses, gods, demigods and devas of the Hindu pantheon, through the centuries and millenia they are depicted with the same faces. A racial memory storehouse exists to keep the depictions of the gods with their original faces. So, if one wants to see why I reject this section for oneself, watch a picture or video of the musician Beth Orton. You did it? Okay. Now search for a picture of Brahma with a close shot of of His face. What do you see? Two persons with certain similar phenotype. If you can, watch the movie "Sleepaway Camp" (Hiltzik 1983) or "Elvira Mistress of The Dark" (Signorelli 1988) The protagonist of the latter and the character Judy of the former, and Beth Orton, if you discern it, they have all three a similar phenotype.

"Sleepaway Camp" I watched this movie when I was a kid. I could not forget it but I forgot the face of Judy. This was in or around 1988. Then, at nineteen I lived the story for which I think this chapter is a brain washing targeted at me. Do not take me for paranoid, after all it is for many reasons that I am writing this commentary. Excuse me if you watch the movies and do not like them. Neither did I. But I need it as a proof to expose my personal problem with this section. Just keep in mind how Judy ends in "Sleepaway Camp."

To begin with, only from PON's twisted view of things can come those interpretations about Kundalini: "BOILED", with boils full of puss? "COOKED" by certain witch whose surname happens to be Cook? "FRIED", with a bad kundalinic acid trip? "GRILLED" on a gridiron that resembles a matrix? In "THE FIRES OF HELL" when Kundalini goes or may go the opposite direction?

We see that PON uses all hot images. Now, what happens if a mentally deaf mute and jivan yogin of nineteen years happens to be passing a holiday with a friend. He is not doing yoga for the time being. An evening he goes outside with his purposes... "YOU KNOW", and then finds a Brahma filled girl, or heavenly fox ("foreigner"), who happens to be trained in yoga and a second language just like the boy character of this example, that's just a few of the things they have in common.

And after they end her virginity that same night, they decide to continue meeting.

They meet a few times again. They share a passionate and unalloyed love. But then something very psychologically devastating for the boy happens: they are giving themselves very passionate French kisses to each other and when the boy opens his eyes, he starts to see the face of his Nazi ex-classmate (the bully of the class), with whom he played homosexually in childhood, instead of the girl's face.

What is important, I said the character was a mentally deaf mute jivan. An encounter when he de-flowers a goddess-looking girl, and a long relation with a seemingly "foreigner" girl like that could be almost the only grace he could have, but no. Not even that the meshes of the western systems of control will allow. Too much dangerous, two westerners, a teen and a post-teen, of yogic tendencies together as a couple.

I have never read nothing so misleading like this ebook. This section is a good example. Once one has watched this three girls (remember to purchase and watch "Sleepaway Camp" to get the full meaning) just relate how the character Judy ends, with the keywords PON uses in this section.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI, "VAMPIRISM" AND MASTURBATION

I like what the author writes in this section. I share PON's view of "vampirism." And what PON propounds in this section seems to be true. When Kundalini unleashed Herself in me I was 23 years old and I was already awakened for the last year and half. Provided that PON means "the reduction of your 'vampirism'" to the power over emotions that one may gain when arousing Kundalini. And about the literary talents one may acquire when one's Kundalini rises, I did gain them. When I saw my "vampirism" reduced dramatically, I was doing yoga periodically, almost daily. I gained a confidence with my feelings. This confidence took the place of the feverous infatuations with girls I had before. But at the same time it was not that I was immune to the beauty of the women that happened to appear in my path for some reason. I was not immune nor passive to them. I could approach and start a conversation with the ones that I liked. But it was strange because when I was not awakened nor with my Kundalini aroused, I also had facility to speak to girls I liked. But the desire implied in the two different situations, of before awakening and after and after the awakening of the Kundalini. Very different on themselves. When I was Adolescent I suffered a "pigeon hole"-type programming, and after it, I started being very much bold with women, very often winning those I liked.

This serves me to put forth for the first time in this commentary PON's concept of "pigeon holes." I do not know if I got the concept or theory of "pigeon holes" right. But I think I did. What I understood is this: the "pigeon holes" are manipulations of time and destiny in the walking reality and in the dreamworld for making one have a life experience that it is so, so traumatic emotionally that lets one meditating on it so deeply and so much as to cull many useful teachings out of it. But PON never went so far into explaining the concept of it. If it is that, I understand PON's original concept of "pigeon hole."

What I lived was finding by the streets of a city a very loved by myself ex-classmate and when she invited me to smoke some ganja, I declined and left her with her girlfriend, going away. When in fact I wanted to stay with she and become more friends, of what we were before, for telling her that I loved her. And after that, I have not seen her again.

This is what I think is a "pigeon hole" programming, but very basically. I have experienced other heavier emotional experiences were dreams are involved. I will comment on that when we come to the section that tells about "pigeon holes". What I want to let here in a comprehensible form is that when I was conditioned and without an aroused Kundalini, I could speak to girls I liked, but only after the "pigeon hole" programming. And the drive to do it was a besotted drive of infatuation without substance.

But after being awakened and after arousing my Kundalini I could coldly control my emotions when I flirted with girls and be more sober and confident. I do not want to praise PON saying that PON is a prodigy with the idea of "pigeon holes", but the hints PON gives about what the theory is about, the only information PON gives about them, were the positive and accepted sources of inspiration for this commentary; I have found it exceedingly interesting. It may be due to me believing that I had "pigeon holes" inserted in my subconscious in late adolescence and early youth. Extensive information on "pigeon holes" later.

To end my commentary of this section. I share the view of something needed to cope with the arousal of Kundalini. But to call it mental exercise is to deprecate Kundalini for what She is. PON borrows the philosophy from yoga but does not tell one that the only way of mastering it is making She to reunite with Lord Shiva at the crown of the head. For this, intense mantra yoga or other yogas may be needed. Not simple, cheap "mental exercises." But "pigeon holes" are not touched yet in the ebook. What follows is again, a fall towards non-acceptance and rejection of what PON writes.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI AND YOUR BODY POSITION

Sometimes, PON's approaches towards kundalinic wisdom seem utter disinformation to me. Why did not PON developed this and other very delicate subjects in the ebook? Who is PON? Or more properly, who was PON at the moment of writing what she/he wrote? Was a young, perhaps adolescent Kundalini yogini or yogin that wrote this as just an exercise of Kundalini yoga? The point is that more or less, PON only relates Kundalini towards being aroused sexually. Being, formerly, a Kundalini yogin I feel that PON is only giving just very basic indications about what Kundalini is and what She produces in the body of the ones that seeksto arouse She. When PON was writing this book, PON seemingly was still a "linguistic prisoner." In this section PON does not tell one that the western way of sitting, that one in a chair and letting both legs hanging, is detrimental to health and consequently to any kind of yoga work. I myself do not sit in chairs, unless I am visiting a place where one has to sit and those are the only chairs available.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI AND TIREDNESS

I lived the most aware moments of my life when I was living the solution to spiritual, energetic and emotional 'milkers' as propounded by Dion Fortune. When I went to live to other country in a different continent. I point this out because I want to note that one can be awakened but one's Kundalini may not deploy as it should.

I happened to realize with an everyday rigorousness and knack that I have not had before; when I lived in detrimental places. When I lived in a place where my mind could go with the flow I could express my feelings and share them, I could practice different yogas everyday and I wrote around three hours per day. I am not implying that I needed to harmoniously flow, mentally and emotionally, to be able to do it, but I am sure that if one is surrounded by, for instance, brutish and barbaric laborers that live in a way that is quite the opposite of evolution, one is going to be in the need of making a stand for being able to live differently. Because one is going to become a target of the control systems and their brainless automatons and these automatons detect when one goes against the flow in a society. They can start psychodramas of envy, jealousy, jaundice and resentment. At this point somebody can question me what is my argument and justification to decide what is evolution and what is not, and to judge persons by their social class. In fact, I do not know what argument I can give for doing it, just common sense. Meaning by common sense my view on things, shared with my equals, because we follow a particular religion and share a set of traditions, views, beliefs, rules, regulations, customs, practices and so on.

The only and most essential thing needed to live lovingly, freely, pleasurably and serenely happy is being able to live among equals that do not quarrel energetically, mentally, physically, spiritually nor emotionally with one. In the case of hostile neighbors, for one's dignity, I do not see living otherwise out of living making a stand. I will always be looking for a quarrel when away from home, living among enemies, if there is that I have a reason to live like that. But, since I have the experience of paradise (the real home, when one's heart lives) and the promise and the goading certainty that it exists, I will make that stand with love, hope and a grave happiness that my enemies cannot have for not knowing at all how life out of hell is.

What I want to let clear here is that if one is surrounded by jealous and envious, hostile neighbors/enemies that coincidently are in lower rungs of the evolutionary ladder they may target all things alien to them of one's personality like being kundalinic, ritualistic, compassionate, neat, clean, nifty, stylish, satisfied, lonely, intelligent, loving, fortunate, cute, spiritual, talented, enterprising, sober and so on.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - THE ARRIVAL OF KUNDALINI

In this section my everlasting interest in the subject felt somewhat defrauded when I read the things PON had to say about "the arrival of Kundalini."

To a title like that I will add that when one feels Kundalini's arrival one will feel like acquiring a finer perception of one's body and soul; specially if one is trying to arouse it by means of any kind of yoga. Relatively simple, normal and common processes like breathing can become a source of knowledge and fun! I am of the opinion that Kundalini's activity can be channeled in any way.

Moreover, pertaining the powers that She bestowed, there seems to be a constant that when Kundalini is awakened in oneself, one can become a literary prodigy.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - BASIC DEFINITION

The resumed definition the ebook gives of Kundalini is good. But PON forgot to add that once one acquires the qualities that come along Kundalini arousal, one may keep them although one may fall from the full-fledged, graceful, kundalinic platform. To use one of PON's phrases here: "what is assimilated is already assimilated." If one changed one's way of life because of kundalinic arousal, then one is going to act accordingly. At least that is my personal experience. Kundalini arousal on myself has shaped my personality and, consequently, the way I lived after it happened.

When I begun doing yoga I started feeling sporadic periods of intense kundalinic influence. This happened when I was in my late teens. I begun doing yoga when I was eighteen years old. Remembering those years I have the recollection that, while it was patent that my Kundalini was rising, I was not prepared for experiencing it. I was very, very young and, most important, I was still unwakened. But when after three years of yoga practice I was illumined and, became a buddha, I felt very much at ease with Kundalini.

It is said that one of the signs of Kundalini's arousal is being too much creative; almost to the point of becoming a genius. I am sure that I have experienced Kundalini acting on me before illumination because of my obsession with graphic design and the ability to express it, almost, (almost, because of not being awakened) successfully. After my awakening this obsession became an everyday task. And then came the poetry, fiction prose, non-fiction, and drama writing.

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - THE APPROACH MOMENT

Returning to the "pigeon hole" programming or planting topic. I see the moment of approaching a "loved one" as a test from "THEM" to see how much has one learnt from "THEIR pigeon holes THEY" planted in one's brain. If one behaves like a subjugated person, mainly if one does not react, and just stares the "loved one" indefinitely, and stays passive, one may fall prey to the very irony and aim of PON's theory of "pigeon holes" indoctrination by "THEM."

I am sort of upset with PON and the world of "THEM" in general, because I am remembering my programming. I want to say to PON the following: why you behave like a great occultism scholar when you are clearly not? It is very depressing to see that, when one picks a topic from the ebook, one has to deal with the ebook's cryptic, core-hard-to-crack nature of it, just to find the delusions and flawed techniques of, seemingly, an eternally conditioned soul. Are you that, piece_of_nothing?

I dare PON to enter the blogging scene and be the shepherd of the school he/she may have created in this last eight years, so we all can become friends. What about your meetings, you do them? If not, I am going to start a ranking of most dangerous ebooks and rank PON's as the 1st.

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - SHELLS BORROWING AND PREGNANCY

"If you're a MALE survivor and some day finally make true love (the so-called fusion) with her using a certain shell, and afterwards this shell gets pregnant and she leaves the shell, would you agree with the idea of letting your and your wife's genetic child to that couple (that shell without your wife plus her partner) to create ? (if you do, mentalize "GOOD FATHER FOR OURS KIDS" whenever you see him)."

This paragraph makes me think about a grandiose paranoid delusion I seem to have for the last 5 or so years. This delusion is about being in love and dating a "foreigner" girl; this happened to me in my middle adolescence. What is important is that when I read this paragraph, and this other one, from "Dismantling keyword HANDICAPPED (plus DISABLED PERSON, CRIPPLE, BLIND, DEAF, DUMB, PARALYTIC, MONGOLOID, FREAK, MAIMED, LAME, etc.)"

"And if you're a man, there is still an additional issue : you may have now a child that is your son or daughter, after your semen has been extracted in one of these meetings in the past, when you were officially a neutral person. You know you'll know this child. It's only a question of time. You will like him/her."

I can just think that PON is talking, again, of something that happened to me. One day when arriving in a Katmandu, Nepal, I think it was the third or four time I went to Katmandu, a new thought unfurled in my mind and started to try to instigate some reaction respecting it. The thought was that one of my girlfriends, in adolescence stole some semen from myself and then inseminated herself out of my knowledge and permission. And that the kid was, at that particular moment when I arrived to Katmandu, 9 or 10 years.

But meditating this again and again, I have diverged in two differing conclusions. One, the most uncanny of the two, is that this girl was in fact more than a "character", I thought that she could be a "foreigner" in human disguise; this, for different reasons too difficult to explain to somebody that has not lived the things I lived nor seen the things I saw, pertaining "foreigners."

I do not know if I will have the drive to tell you about those things later in this book. But as a reply to PON's answer if I will let them or not to "create." I would not, because that girl now is just a woman that looks totally different, and is an expensive hooker that sells her body for her fatherless son. PON meant re-"create"? More artificial sons, why?

The other conclusion is that I was being prey to a brain washing taking on account my knowledge about Carlos Castaneda's books. I feel that whoever was trying to brainwash me with this story of my artificially inseminated son, knew that I knew this of Castaneda. If one is conversant with it, what the character "Gorda" tells in "The Second Ring of Power" about the soul of the persons who had sons or daughters... "YOU KNOW."

About Carlos Castaneda I can say something that one may give to it some use. When I read Castaneda at nineteen or twenty years of age, I have found it like the most mystical and refined occult and 'godly'... fun thing to read. But after studying vedantic and tantric scriptures I have come to the conclusion that Castaneda may be a hoax. But forgive me, please, the memories of Castaneda, his missing disciples and the Yaqui Indians that he, allegedly, studied.

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - SHELLS BORROWING AND ITS IMPLICATIONS

"What would you say if your beloved one appeared to you using a shell and a character that has a boyfriend (girlfriend) or perhaps a husband (wife) in the STAGE WORLD ?

Would you be jealous ? Would you be angry ? Why ? Ask yourself.

Or would you have plain understanding and comprehension that everything is just a performance; that that partner she (he) is with is just the partner of that shell, not her (his) partner; and that this shell was already dating/marrying him (her) before your beloved one borrows it temporarily ?"

A young man with telepathic powers falls in love with a diva. Let me take someone looking "foreigner" to give an example here to see if I understood the question. Take for instance Björk. He calls she in his heart and mind and he thinks he is developing a spiritual relation with she.

Björk becomes his "loved one" and he carries her, or he thinks he does, in his heart; only having love for she. Then, four years later, he discovers that for the last three years Björk is married to somebody else. Then, the young telepath will feel defrauded, how can he understand what PON asks the readers to understand?

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - SHELLS / CHARACTERS VALUING

"Let's say now that your beloved one appears in your routine, using several shells. To define what kind of relationship you want with her (him), these are some questions you may want to reflect on before THEY induce you to :"

"Do you value her (his) shells ?"
"Is it important to you ? Or totally irrelevant ? Ask yourself."

I will value the "shell" of somebody that I like. I think that everyone may think and feel that one has the best taste and the, differing, taste of others is wrong in some way. When I like a "shell" I do not only like it because it is cute and attracts me. I will value the "shell" because if she has such a cute body, it means that she has a good soul inside. It is important, because as much cuter is a "shell", more goodness of the soul living inside it denotes. It is a karmic law.

"Do you believe there must be an intrinsic relation between the so-called beauty of your present shell and the so-called beauty of her (his) present shells ? Why ? Ask yourself."

Just karmic laws at work. If one sees oneself cute enough as deserving a "cute shell", the most probable reaction will be that one will encounter that "cute shell." In a longing frame of mind, it may be even possible for one to find the "shell" of one's dreams.

"What about the characters connected to each shell ? Do you value her (his) characters ? Do you have any preference concerning this or that character that she (he) may use ? Why ? Ask yourself."

One of her "characters", the one that she has chosen to manifest to myself, is the "character" of an innocent freshman female, and shows me a picture of herself wearing a punk girl "shell", but in fact she is a sluttish porn actress and uses a totally different "shell" when she is shot. Then I will prefer the innocent student girl "shell" instead of the porn fox one.

"Do you believe that there must be a similarity between some characteristics of your present 'life' and some characteristics of a specific character of hers (his) ? Why ? Ask yourself."

Yes, I do. If we are not equals or similar, when together, how will we get along without quarreling?

"Do you believe there are any restrictions for your present shell to have a relationship with any specific shell of hers (his) ? Why ? Ask yourself."

Only in the case of she being betrothed to someone else. Or in the case of an extreme "shell", like the example of the female freshman, punk and porn fox.

"You are NOT a character because you don't have your crystal activated and because THEY don't recognize you as a character. How do you think this fact may influence your relationship with her (him) ? Do you believe you have to behave like a character for her (him) or with her (him) ? Why ? Ask yourself."

No, I do not need to behave like a character, because she is not my "loved one". PON did not say "your loved one appears in your routine"... PON said "beloved one." An alternative "loved one." I do not want to sound misleading, but what if you have a "loved one" and feel attraction to other "shells?" It would not be love but you will want that love to originate and rise. But to behave like a character, yes, I will have to in the case of other contenders looking for the "prize."

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - ALONE OR LONELY

I think this section is bizarre. Does the author take the reader as a stupid? If one has an idealized "loved one" inside, and works faithfully to a reunion someday, then, why one is going to approach one of "THEIR characters" with sexual intentions?

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER

BASIC IDEA

"The basic SICKLY AND DISTORTED idea embedded in THEIR speculation is convincing your brain that your wife (if you are a male survivor) or your husband (if you are a female survivor) is just creating you like a child, is just making you grow up, and then, when you become a grown man (woman), she (he) would liberate you to the other women (men), whom you should date and even marry in the STAGE WORLD."

Again, the most revealing example I have, to give PON the reason, is one related to the Hare-Krsna movement. What PON says under this head occurs in a very similar way in the Krsna's, let's say neo, vedic ashrams of their society. The stages of life are divided in four orders or stages namely brahmacarya (student) 0 to 24 years of age, grihastha (householder) 25 to 49 years of age, vanaprastha (retired) 50 to 74 years of age and sannyasa (renounced) 75 to 100 years of age.

When a devotee is groomed in the brahmacarya stage, if the devotee is male, he is actually encouraged to see and treat all women as the own, biological, mother. Note I said groomed, the idea of becoming a demi-god in the process is imperative. Additionally, everything pertaining the marriage may be arranged although the devotees may deny it. It is so arranged by their gurus, familiars and, they will argue, God Himself. And the gurus are considered the 'spiritual father' of the devotee. But I remind the reader that the Hare-Krsnas do accept the label of brain washers with commitment, resignation, love and happiness. At least that is what they expressed to me.

12-B THERE IS NO PODIUM ON THE BACKSTAGE

“(Pending)”

Example #13 - THE SUICIDAL APPROACH

"Do you believe that you have to "jump" into some kind of "auric burning abyss" so as to make your "auric sacrifice" to the Gods ? Do you believe there is a Santa Claus, "gift" in hands, waiting for you soon after you commit an "auric suicide" ? You bet there is not. The only thing you'd find would be a tremendous waste of energy, besides emotional suffering. Is that what you want ?"

What does all this mean? Does it mean approaching with loving intentions one of "THEIR characters" instead of being faithful to the "loved one" inside? Thus "comiting auric suicide" irrespective of the outcome of the approach?

But then again, if the "auric death" is an illusion, why one has to have to consider the ways in which "THEY" may want to induce one to experience it? It is all altogether a lie and a waste of energy, specially for those who try to brain wash one with these techniques.

"The same occurs with this SUICIDAL APPROACH. "Let die" is an image that can bring you the idea of falling asleep after an arduous and tiring day, for instance. They may use this expression "let die" referring to a situation where you allegedly "turn off" your controls for a long period - either because your mind is tired or because it is confused - so as you can dive into their illusions, into their DREAMWORLD-TO-SELL that doesn't exist."

These brain washings, these... "behavioral inducements", if coupled with situations in which one is milked of one's energy, may let one at the mercy of the environment's inertia and any ideals of perfection are thwarted. "THEY", mediocrity and its demons, won and one starts to behave like "THEY" want.