THIS IS A 18th OF FEBRUARY POST that I couldn't post for security problems.

THE FALL

I come here around hundred days after my last uninspired flirtations with yogic culture.I do not know exactly why I felt, for the last hundred days a complete aversion to any sort of bettering and sobering up of the self, I don't know yet.

That is a third of a year, and it is somewhat alarming.I realize that it isn't easy for a yogui to be aiming to tread the path of yoga in an averse environment as an epicenter of meat industry is.

But on second thought, I mustn't be very much hard on myself for this fall of the last hundred days. I need to plan out my month of workouts in a better way. If I am going to have my stomach all upset for a bad planned diet and a fast metabolism that incites me to eat around six times per day it's just not funny, let alone healthy.

I must plan it in a way that the weight workouts days don't interfere with the hatha yoga's need for mitahara...I have all the workings of the jail-like, barbarian, western megalopolis figured out.

In its emasculation of a reallly healthy and transcendental culture and philosphy of life it tries to condition even the unconditionable. When the reasonings of the hive minds in one's head aren't bought anymore as own thoughts, the ways of the western systems of control and barbarian hive-minds are decidedly blunt and thoughly cohesive and forceful in its infusion of anxiety and impatience for extracting pleasures and benefits from material things.

Working out is not very much funny because of the uncleanliness of the place and of the rank-and-file sort of persons that go to the gym I go, that is on the same block where I'm living. The gym is so much full of germs that for the time being there it clogs my nose so deeply with particles and mucus denoting infection, that it changes my life in a very deep way and for the worst...

This of having the nose clogged for the germs living in the uncleanliness of the gym is a total downer. If I am unbalanced with a bad diet is quite obvious that I would have low defenses and get this kind of nose infections all the time. But I am not giving up.

I need to have the strength of designing a better diet and sticking to it for the sake of being able to continue lifting weights as a means of evolving physically.I have just had an idea, I will split the months in two. In one month, two weeks I'll eat six meals per day and do three full throtle workouts per week, while the other half of the month I'll revert to four meals per day and do yoga no less than four days per week and workouts two times per week, but not full steam like in the first half of the month, but mildly in comparison.

After a nonchalant summer, that is about to finish, of not doing nothing for evolving physically I am fed up with sloth and the intertia of the surrounding demons that live like hogs. I am not letting that interfere with my personal path anymore. I'm not giving up yoga nor weight lifting, NEVER!!!