In late 2011 I became acquainted with the state of things in the current, so-called, ‘free open source software’ world, AKA the GNU scene. I was in for a wild ride of constrained and diminished productivity, frustration, malevolently designed and prepackaged sidetracking and a nauseous deception.
I accept that in the early 2000s I bought into the baits of the free soft movement and thought that, when the moment of applying myself to knowing, learning and using FOSS came I will make the best use of it.
My motives were mainly inspired by foreseeing the added satisfaction and feeling of accomplishment of having risen from being an outsider with a lot of ideas to implement to the platform of a self-made Internet entrepreneur that became one without paying any kind of allegiance (and money$) to the corporate world (mainly M$ and Adob€/Macrom€dia), oh boy, how naïve I was!
Without going into much detail (I have content about this topic for an XL article about the dangers of trusting the FOSS/GNU worlds blindly) I can say that the (travesty of) software brands and (experiments of) development firms of the GNU scene are a hoax in the sense that they are publicized as a free alternative to paid, established operating systems, tools, applications and platforms when in fact that’s way far from the truth.
GNU and FOSS are a free alternative to mainstream soft, but for NERDS and DWEEBS, not a real state-of-the-art, power-user friendly alternative that can be considered by those Windows users that flowed with the times and are dependent on real computing.
I lack the means to express with words in what degraded, depressing and hopeless world I was thrown as soon as I begun giving my first baby steps in the world of self-made Internet entrepreneurship.
To put it bluntly, the most desirable, formerly even coveted, GNU and FOSS pieces of soft are a form of enslavement way worse than any sort of corporate abuse I ever got from Windows and its soft. I wanted to talk about this in this article in a prosaic way so I’m gonna try defining what I perceived in one paragraph:
It looked as if the open source disasters were crafted as a sort of resented, vengeful expression against the world perpetrated by the dorks, nerds, twerps and dweebs who wade in foss/gnu (aka FREETARDS) development; for the unsuspecting users to pay the dweebs back for so-much ass-kissing, depersonalization, de-individualization, repression, pressure to conform, ostracizing of errors, soul violation and social conditionings they were subjected to in their “formative” and “corpo-noob” years…
The months I fought with open source stuff (mostly platforms more than oses and tools/apps) and I still feel the taint of paying attention to something so little and stupid like it, a tragedy that disconnected me from my higher self for a despicable vomit, project of a lifestyle, that I wasn’t expecting.
Everything was broken, badly done or incredibly nerd-like, in a way that either I did a superhuman effort or the nightmare of having to deal with such a beheaded strata of thought would extended for months on end.
And thus, locked out from this blog and at the same time hardening my soul with the academic torture of the socio-economically resented of the freetards I was far from being living true to my ideals and I felt there was no point in progressing in the hatha-yoga self-discipline because I couldn’t share it openly as I tasted and then loved to do. I wanted to confess that: I love coming here and showing my life to others and it helps me greatly to get in the mood of this kind of things when I want to do them and feel like an effect deserves to be produced on society at large.
Nevertheless, I didn’t give up a life dedicated to physical evolution and perfection because though I wasn’t doing yoga I still had my weight-lifting training to compensate. Now after nine months, I realize that I did it again!!! As I wrote back in this blog that I burnt myself out in weight work outs, it happened AGAIN, and last week I was feeling my muscles like literal parasites craving for food, and fags and stuff: this is not good.
Never gonna give up iron weights training, when you have plenty of gyms near, it’s like a blessing and a total stupidity not making use of them. But if you have to commute I think one can give it a second thought. But when you can walk three minutes to a gym, if you don’t use it, you’re missing something for a life of sloth and sedentary couch potatery that is not mentally sane in my opinion.
I started being extra careful with my gym workouts. Like, I was going only 2 times per week to the gym, and doing far from full bore routines:
two staple exercises: abs and shoulders
three if feeling inspired but most of the time two specific muscle exercises
like, if it was a biceps’ day it will be: abs > biceps exercise 1 > biceps exercise 2 > shoulders and that’s it, on average 30 minutes of workout.
This went okay for several months, and coexisting with hatha-yoga, it works and I can attest to it. But returning to the subject of my baby steps in the commercial Internet fueled by gnu and foss, somewhat the anger I got out from being fighting with software translated to a blind fury in the gyms where I forgot about my preference for hatha-yoga over weight training and fell back into devastating full-bore work-outs, a subtle rejecting of the nerd world of corporal freaks.
Anyway, I’m not chronic fatigued like before, and this is good. I have found ways to cope with one of the intrinsic challenges of an athlete: chronic fatigue and I will be posting about that in the future.
